Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Loss

Twelve week ultrasound.

No heartbeat.

Twelve fucking weeks.

Grief.

Anger.

Blame.

Guilt.

Grief.

Nausea (why won't it go away?)

Emptiness.

Loss for words.

46 comments:

BeThisWay said...

I am a new reader but wanted to express my deepest, deepest sympathy for your loss...

My prayers are with you and your family.

Amy said...

I am at a loss for words but please know that my prayers are with you.

Melissa said...

Oh I'm so sorry. That is a wretched feeling. Damn chromosomes not lining up right...

Kerry said...

i am so very sorry...

Mrs. Chicken said...

I am so, so very sorry, friend.

Annie said...

I'm sorry hun :(

Mary said...

I am so, so sorry. I know I hated some of the comments people made to me when we went through this so I will just leave it at I'm sorry and I am thinking of you. Please take care.

KT said...

Oh Man, I am SOOOOOO sorry. It's just awful. I'll be thinking of you.

Goddess in Progress said...

Oh, I'm so sorry. It's such an awful feeling. I'll never forget when it happened to me, looking on that ultrasound screen and knowing it just wasn't right. Nothing to say to make you feel any better, I suppose, just I'm sorry, and you're far from alone.

Missy said...

so sorry to hear this sad news. We will be thinking about you. :(

Shannon said...

Oh noooo! I'm so so sorry. My thoughts are with you. I know the grieving you are going through....

Karen said...

oh, oh, I'm so sorry, so very sorry. I'm thinking of you.

Denise said...

Oh my goodness. I can relate. I am so sorry.

just jamie said...

Oh Gosh. No. I'm sorry. There's nothing more I can say, but know my thoughts are with you.

AndreAnna said...

I don't know what to say other than I'm sorry. Very sorry.

Ophelia Rising said...

I'm thinking of you, my dear friend. Much love and many hugs to all of you.

Rebecca said...

I will de-lurk to say I'm so sorry and I feel your pain. I just had a miscarriage at 9 weeks. My first child I had after 3 IVFs then I actually got pregnant naturally only to lose it. I'm there with you! It really sucks.

Kathryn said...

I am so very sorry for your loss.

Motherhood for Dummies said...

oh my gosh, I am so sorry. You are in our prayers

Trenches of Mommyhood said...

Ohhhh. So very sorry. I was just checking in w/ you yesterday and almost wrote, wondering where you were. Now I understand.
Be well friend.

imaginary binky said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I had two miscarriages, and the feelings are still here after two years. Time heals the pain, but slowly. Be gentle with yourself. It's very much okay to grieve, feel anger, and anything else you need to express.

catnip said...

I am so very sorry.

Laura said...

Hugs.

Sympathies.

Friendship.

Support.

Tears.

More hugs.

Ladybug's Picnic said...

I am so sorry.

Manic Mommy said...

Ugh. I am so very sorry.

Kelli said...

sorry isnt enough, hugs are not enough, prayers are close but not enough. sending you all I have by way of blog. Take care.

Mrs. G. said...

You are in my prayers, girl. I am so sorry.

Whirlwind said...

I am so sorry to hear about your loss.

Jordan said...

Oh, no. I am so terribly sorry to hear this sad news. I am thinking of you.

Sarcastic Mom (aka Lotus) said...

I'm so very sorry.
Love,peace,comfort,hugs.

Jenn @ Juggling Life said...

Me too. Sorry.

Magpie said...

Oh hon, I'm so sorry. It hurts.

Toni said...

Oh, I am so sorry. So very, very sorry. Thinking of you....

Domestically Challenged said...

OH, I am SO sorry to hear your news, and send hugest hugs.
x

pixie said...

I am sooooooooo sorry about your loss. Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you, and your baby. ((hugs))

Laski said...

I know there are no words. Just know that I'm thinking of you.

Sending you love and hugs . . .

Fairly Odd Mother said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I will keep you close in my thoughts.

EatPlayLove said...

Sorry, I hope you find the time to heal with your family. You are in my thoughts.

Butrfly Garden said...

I am so, so sorry. I'm thinking of you, hon. I hope you and the family are doing okay.

The bean-mom said...

I am so very, very sorry.

James Austin said...

It's hard to even fathom, especially now. So sorry to read about your painful loss. Hang in there. As you can see, you have a lot of love out here.

Cathy said...

Oh, honey, I am so sorry. Am sending many, many hugs your way.

Fratzels said...

I am so very sorry.

THE MOM BOMB said...

If it's any consolation at all, I've been there. I hope you find peace, soon.

Jenni said...

Oh, I feel like such a horrible, horrible friend. I took a few weeks off and am just getting caught up on reading.

My heart goes out to you. I can't even imagine a late loss. I've had one very early one and it was difficult enough.

I will be praying for you.

Jennifer, Playgroups Are No Place For Children said...

Oh no. I'm so sorry. And sorry I'm late in offering my condolences.